"Happy birthday! May you continue to move forward, filled with confidence and courage, and achieve more dreams and goals in the new year." - "Spice and Wolf"
Since it's my birthday, I'll just talk about myself briefly. 📖
23 years old 🎂#
After midnight today, it means I have grown another year older. I have spent the past twenty-something years in a daze, always confused, and it's still the same now, heh.
I have always been confused about my long-term goals or plans. Although I have a general direction, I haven't figured out the specific process. Even if I do, I still feel unsure, so I often just give up thinking about it.
This may not be a good thing, as it means the whole process will be difficult to control, and maybe it will deviate from my initial expectations or even go in the opposite direction.
In the past, I used to feel frustrated about this. Why did I deviate so far from my planned goals step by step? When there are deviations or disappointments, I feel anxious and like I'm not following the plan. 😶🌫️
Unfortunately, time never stops passing.
Time flies, your past keeps increasing, your future keeps decreasing, and the unknown possibilities become fewer and fewer, while the regrets that cannot be changed accumulate like mountains.
Do you understand?
But humans are not machines, and the environment we are in is not a machine either. It is impossible to execute every step accurately, and many things cannot be achieved through hard work or following a set plan.
On my birthday in 2021, I wrote about "making peace with myself," and now I think I have achieved some of it. Regardless of whether there are variables or not, time keeps moving forward. Instead of worrying about some bad things, I'd rather keep myself busy. If my past self has already made efforts, no matter what the outcome, I shouldn't blame my past self for trying.
Time is limited, and I want to spend as little time as possible in sadness.
Myself and Others 🧑🏻🤝🧑🏻#
I consider myself a relatively introverted person (at least in front of unfamiliar people 🐶). The circles I often communicate with are related to my environment. I remember that after entering high school, I had less contact with people from middle school. After entering university, I often kept in touch with university friends. Now, I often keep in touch with colleagues at work. Over the years, the number of people I have stayed in touch with has been very few.
But this doesn't mean that I forget about certain people or things. They still hold a place in my heart as friends, but I often don't take the initiative to contact them. Everyone has their own lives. If one day we happen to meet on the street and can still greet each other with a smile, I think that would make me very happy.
If any big bosses need someone to guard their company's entrance, you can save a spot for me. Wealth and prosperity, why not?
Lastly#
As I write this, I realize that I have just written a personal account. But it's okay, the meaning of things is always given by people, and this article does record my 23-year-old self.
Dedicated to myself, wishing myself a happy birthday.